As I rose from my slumbers a couple of days ago, I began my usual prodding of myself. “What are you going to do today?” “What will you accomplish?”
I think we’ve all been conditioned to get in this frame of mindlessness. We have to do something “constructive” in order to feel like we have any self-worth.
But who is this “judge” sitting in the back of our minds and where do all of these self-created pressures come from? Why do we have to “accomplish” something and what makes that something “constructive” or “meaningful?”
I decided to give myself permission to take the day off.
Not in the sense of doing nothing, although arguably, there is value in that too sometimes. But I gave myself permission to get off my own back. To kill that self-judging voice in the back of my head.
Well, I spent a good part of the day reading, relaxing, enjoying the freedom I gave myself not to attach my entire worth as a person on completing some task. And it felt like a giant weight had been lifted from my shoulders.
So, I carried this state of mind over into a second day. I read, meditated, had coffee with my daughter, took a long hot bath, built a nice fire in the woodstove. And I cranked up the music and danced around the living room 🙂
It was absolutely liberating.
You see, by giving myself permission to quit judging myself, I actually accomplished much more in terms of gaining some peace of mind. Of freeing my spirit. Of capturing some happiness. Of living in the moment.
Happy Holidays to everyone and give yourself permission to be joyous and free!
Crank up the music and dance!
Photo: Somewhere in Oregon. Open and free. Rolling grasses. Azure blue lakes. Snow-capped mountain peaks. Weightless beauty. Liberation.